[She knew it might come eventually. Eloise had hoped that she had shown Francesca of her siblings she is least likely to judge or limit her in anyway. She herself remembers what it is like to come to this place with absolutely zero knowledge of what is expected, but she knows the fine line of being gentle and knowing that her younger sister is a strong, capable woman.]
[ besides their mother, eloise may well be the bridgerton that understands her best, she knows. not only because they are a year apart — exactly a year, sharing a name day and all, growing together — but they both feel like outsiders. outcasts in their own family.
she also knows that eloise has been here the longest of all their siblings, and there’s something reassuring about that. ]
Thank you.
It might be outside the realm of appropriateness. I would not grudge if you declined —
[ she is rambling even over this devise, but it is taking considerable courage for her to come forward with this ]
But, it is painfully clear, to me at least, that I am very new to all of ... these physical expectations placed upon us. I fear I am not well prepared? That I will disappoint my partners.
I was much in the same place when I arrived, sister.
[And she remembers it well. Feeling like everyone knew things beyond her, that everyone had this knowledge that she had been barred from just because of her gender. It infuriated her and made her seek out the knowledge herself-- which was not always the best approach.]
It took me time to... acclimate myself here as well. I would not necessarily rush you on this either, but do know that this place sometimes often takes away choice-- so firstly I would ask if you have found any friends? Even just acquaintances who you could tolerate their presence if say you were stuck in a room for some unknown time or if you ended up in some, shall we say inappropriate circumstances with?
Do know you are hardly the first person to be in this situation, and I have found *most* people understanding of it. Sometimes it is just best to find someone comfortable and... dip your toes in. Metaphorically.
[ francesca is not as ... bold as eloise, but they share the same strain of obstinance and, dare i say, adventure. she has been venturing out and learning things. she is vexed by what she had been, in a word, forbidden to experience, even deprived of.
still. it makes her blush quite a bit to discuss these things. she's not sure if it would be easier in person either. ]
It is a little reassuring, to know I am not the first to have to stumble through all of this. Thank you for sharing, El.
I have found one or two friends, I am happy to report. Though, not very many. I am not as quick to speak to strangers as the rest of you. Sometimes I wish I could be more at ease with them.
My toes have been .. dipped in. Mostly, I am concerned I am doing things wrongly.
I am genuinely glad to hear it. You may experience monthly texts from our brother to 'remind' us of quota or challenges. I am glad that you at least have some people you feel comfortable with.
It does take time. I may speak quickly, but I am sure I stick my foot in my mouth more times than not. Still it is a process of finding some comfortability here, and as long as you have found someone, I certainly will not pester you on the matter.
First, you should know there is nothing you can do wrong if you have open communication with your partner. If something feels wrong and they say so, that does not necessarily mean you are doing something wrong, but that they may not like it, and vice versa. It is completely okay and does not mean it is a slight on any person nor there skill or lack of. Sometimes it is good to be upfront with the latter. And even better to find someone who... may also like to instruct.
[Look, she was literally taught how to suck dick by a pirate, and Jack very much liked teaching rich, aristocratic girls like her.]
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You may ask me anything, Francesca.
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she also knows that eloise has been here the longest of all their siblings, and there’s something reassuring about that. ]
Thank you.
It might be outside the realm of appropriateness. I would not grudge if you declined —
[ she is rambling even over this devise, but it is taking considerable courage for her to come forward with this ]
But, it is painfully clear, to me at least, that I am very new to all of ... these physical expectations placed upon us. I fear I am not well prepared? That I will disappoint my partners.
Would you have any pointers you could share?
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[And she remembers it well. Feeling like everyone knew things beyond her, that everyone had this knowledge that she had been barred from just because of her gender. It infuriated her and made her seek out the knowledge herself-- which was not always the best approach.]
It took me time to... acclimate myself here as well. I would not necessarily rush you on this either, but do know that this place sometimes often takes away choice-- so firstly I would ask if you have found any friends? Even just acquaintances who you could tolerate their presence if say you were stuck in a room for some unknown time or if you ended up in some, shall we say inappropriate circumstances with?
Do know you are hardly the first person to be in this situation, and I have found *most* people understanding of it. Sometimes it is just best to find someone comfortable and... dip your toes in. Metaphorically.
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still. it makes her blush quite a bit to discuss these things. she's not sure if it would be easier in person either. ]
It is a little reassuring, to know I am not the first to have to stumble through all of this. Thank you for sharing, El.
I have found one or two friends, I am happy to report. Though, not very many. I am not as quick to speak to strangers as the rest of you. Sometimes I wish I could be more at ease with them.
My toes have been .. dipped in. Mostly, I am concerned I am doing things wrongly.
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It does take time. I may speak quickly, but I am sure I stick my foot in my mouth more times than not. Still it is a process of finding some comfortability here, and as long as you have found someone, I certainly will not pester you on the matter.
First, you should know there is nothing you can do wrong if you have open communication with your partner. If something feels wrong and they say so, that does not necessarily mean you are doing something wrong, but that they may not like it, and vice versa. It is completely okay and does not mean it is a slight on any person nor there skill or lack of. Sometimes it is good to be upfront with the latter. And even better to find someone who... may also like to instruct.
[Look, she was literally taught how to suck dick by a pirate, and Jack very much liked teaching rich, aristocratic girls like her.]